Tuesday, September 25, 2012

Trying to settle in...

Once again, its quite some time since I've stepped into the blogging world. I really need to commit...sigh. Today is just one of those days where I feel like I need to write. Woke up this morning to 5 lovely gifts from my yellow lab/viezsla mix... she doesn't react well to her all natural (comfortis) flea meds, and pooped on the floor, while also throwing up 4x. REALLY? My day off and this is what I wake up to...? Wow. Not to mention, how did I NOT hear her? I am a very light sleeper... but anyway enough about that nastiness. 

 Danny and I just moved out to California in May, and it hasn't been the easiest. I am super close with my family, and him readjusting from the Marine Corps to Civilian life is no easy walk in the park, but we are making do. I just miss the SPACE and our old home which I worked so hard on. I don't feel like this temporary apartment until we can buy our new home is "home." Maybe its just me, but I HATE apartments, never enough light, or space for that matter, especially with two adults and two large dogs. North Carolina is just spacious all around, and of course my family was only 3 hours away. Growing up sucks sometimes... but it will all be worth it once we finally settle in.

 The actual settling part hasn't been easy either, about 2 months after we moved out here, one of our best friends died in a motorcycle accident. He wasn't in the 'typical' motorcycle accident, he was driving safe, about 35mph in a neighborhood right up the street from my in-laws house, when someone turned right into him, I still don't understand what happened, and I don't think I ever will. Justin, was I guess you can say my ONLY friend out here, and the best man in our wedding. He was my husband's best friend. You know how some of your husband's friends, or boyfriend's friends treat you as "oh you're just my friends wife/girlfriend," Justin always accepted me as HIS friend, and always called to check up on me while Danny was in Afghanistan, and could tell when things bothered me. I just can't get over how he was taken away from us. He was the guy that took his grandma to get her hair done, helped his niece with her homework and picked her up from school, and loved his friends and family with all of his heart. I think when people like Justin, and himself get taken away from us so tragically and randomly we will never get over it. God surely gained an angel, but we lost our best friend, brother, cousin, uncle, and son. I do believe God has a plan for all, but this I just cannot see right now.

I don't know exactly where this blog is going, or why I just decided to write down everything, but sometimes you just need to get it all out there in the open. Until next time friends....


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